Sunday, February 10, 2008

"Half-way there"

There was this girl I met a few days ago. I was so bothered by her looks coz she’s seems a 'lil upset for something that I don’t know yet. But as I approached her and asked her if she’s ok, she then looked at me in the eye and said “its over.” I was puzzled by what she said, I have no idea what that means. Oh well, I guess a lil interrogation won’t hurt her that much. So I started asking questions and letting her explain what she meant by “it’s over.”

I was shocked when she started telling me her story. Only then that I found out that she just ended her “relationship” with the guy she used to go out with. But what really surprised me was the way she said it. She’s so strong; I didn’t even saw a tear in her eyes. Maybe she already accepted it long before it happened. Though she is strong but you can’t deny the fact that she’s hurting inside. Just because her eyes don’t tear, doesn’t mean that her heart is not crying.

I asked her what brought her in making such decision. Then she answered “I guess my heart just kind of tired waiting for him to do his moves and also I can’t feel his love for me anymore!” Well I can’t blame her for that; if that’s the best way for her to move on and let go of the hurtful things that happened between them. Sometimes we have to let go at some point in order for us to move forward.

Guess she felt that I was a bit worried about her. I know that letting go is easy to say but it takes a lot of courage to do so. Then suddenly she said “Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. Actually, I’m half way there.” She maybe broken but I felt that she’s now ready to pick up the pieces and be whole again. They say for a Christian, wholeness always comes after brokenness. I know God can heal a broken heart, but he has to have all the pieces. In these “tragedies” in our life that God chooses to exhibit His love and grace.

I know someday we will bump in each other again and this time she’s happy more than she can ever be.

**oops… dreaming is over, time to get up and do some household chores.

Just wondering, was that another girl or was it just a reflection of me??

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