Siksik, Liglig at Umaapaw

“When God gives, it POURS”

Eto ang madalas na maririnig mo sa Church namin tuwing “giving time.” Infairnez, totoo naman at msa2bi kong e2 n nga ata ang nra2nsan ng pamilya ko ngyon.. A month full of blessings!!... Ang saya!

Feb. 21 – The long wait is over! The results are out!.. lumabas na sa net ang result ng December 2007 Nsg. Licensure Exam. Out of 67,728 board takers e nkasama ang name ko sa 28, 924 successful board passers!.. Ang saya! Talagang nka2high ung feeling.. ikaw b nmn gsingin ng good news ndi kba m22wa nun.. khit na wla kpa sa tamang ulirat e mbu2hayan k tlga ng dugo pg nrinig mo na pumasa ka sa npakahirap n exam n un.. woohoo!!... Lam ko it doesn’t end there but atleast ngyon I will be able to apply for the position of a Nurse, ndi na NA… ang saya kya nun!.. hehehe...

Feb. 22 – Hindi pa man nta2pos ung hangover nmin sa board exam e sumabay nrin sa celebration ang paglabas ng pamangkin ko! Welcome to the outside world Baby Jacob Rhynuer Caballero! We are so happy na nkalabas xa ng maayos at wlang complications. Happy din kmi dhil khit na super hirap na ung hipag ko sa panganganak ay ngawa prin nyang mgNSVD (Normal Spontaneous Vaginal Delivery). Hirap kaya nun pro nakaya nya!..

Feb. 23 – Me and my friends went out to have some fun!.. Mtagal2 din kming ndi naka pagbonding kya sulitin dpat ang gala.. Thank God at bnigyan me ni ma2 ng png gastos.. wahehe.. dun lng ulit ako nkalabas at nkahingi ng money k ma2.. sayang nga’t ndi kmi kumpleto but im sure sa next victory party nmin wla ng aabsent!!.. hehehe… Blessing tlga for me to have friends whose always there in full support.. tnx tlga sa prayers guys!!..^^,

Feb. 27 – B-day ni Kuya at sakto nmng tumawag sknya ung pngapplyan nyang work and he is for final interview na!.. Grabe ang gift sknya ni Lord.. May baby Jacob na may work pa.. Good! Atleast may panggastos n xa sa anak nya… ang saya ko!

– I also received a call from a friend and meron xang dalang good news.. (hmm… ndi ko muna ssbhin bka maudlot e..) pro good news tlga xa for me!!.. hahahaha.. sana matuloy!.. ang saya saya ko tlga!!...

Feb. 28 – We went to PRC to verify our grades.. And again God answered my prayers.. ang saya ko!!.. wahehehe... Super happy ako sa grade ko!.. (ilan un??.. ahmmm… secret!!.. pilitin nio muna ako.. wahehe…)

– We also went to PNA office to get tickets for the Oath taking.. muntik n kming mcut-off sa pila pro buti nlng makulit kmi at tlgang ndi ngpatindag si tonton kya in the end e pngbigyan kming pumasok at kumuha ng tickets.. haaaayzzz.. buti nlng at ndi n sayang lakad nmin… Mission accomplished!!...

Sobra2ng thankful kmi dhil answered prayer lhat.. It is true that “Prayer goes Up and Blessings go dOwn.”

Sa ngyon, I can say that thou we are in a financial crisis but still we are able to enjoy God’s blessings.

Hindi man ako super saya sa ibang bahagi ng buhay ko pro having God in my life makes that happiness complete!.. ANG SAYA KO!!!!....

May God continue to give us a blissful life!!..

I'm coming OUT! ö_ö

Its been too dark in here ever since I came. I know I’m alone; nobody’s out there and its barely walls around me. At first, I was freely moving in this ‘cave’ I’m in. But as the days go by and months passes by, this ‘cave’ of mine gets too narrow for me to move. Still, its ok. I’m enjoying myself swimming around and floating in the water. The water here is also my only source of drink, so that I won’t get dehydrated while I’m still inside this ‘cave’.


I wonder where that voice is coming from. It’s like they’re singing. Though I don’t know what that song is, but surely it makes me feel sleepy.


Ooops.. I bumped my head on the wall again. I guess, I’m getting too big for this ‘lil space I have. But I know, in no time I’ll be free from this ‘cave’ of mine.


Ohh wait, I think I’m on my way out. I can see the path now; the way to the outside world. The ‘gate’ is being opened bit by bit each day.


I’m so excited! I can’t wait to see my mom and dad. I’m excited to see their reactions. Do you think they’ll like me? Though I’ve been here for almost 9 months, “coming out” will surely calls for a celebration! I know I’ll bring a BIG change in the lives of the people who’ll be taking care of me. Although it will take some time before we can understand each other but I am certain that they are happy seeing me alive.


So please pray for my safety as I head my way out. And please, do also pray for my mom’s strength, that she can endure the pain she’ll be going through.


Ok! its time now. I hope to see you soon.


Oh I forgot to tell you my name. Well you can call me anything you want but most of them call me “baby” and I like it!..

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February 22, 2008 at 6:30 pm
- Baby Jacob Rhynuer Caballero was born!!.. (my pamangkin!)

Huli ka boy!

Eto ka na nmn, 2lad ng dati.. nkatingin skin at parang inaabangan ang aking pagdating. Yang mga mata mong ndi mpakali, at ngiting pilit na kinukubli. Bkit ba lingon ka ng lingon? Ano ba problema mo? Tignan mo nga yang ktabi mo, nbu2raot na sayo.

Akala mo cguro ndi ko npa2nsin, yang mga pagtitig mo skin.

Mraming beses nrin kita nhuli at maraming beses mo nring bigla e2ng nili2his. Pro mukhang mkulit yang mga mata mong singkit at kahit iwasan gawin ay patuloy n npa2titig sa aking mga ngiti.

Gnon ba khirap lumapit skin? mdali lng nmn akong kalabitin. ndi nmn kita ita2boy n prang palaboy dhil malabo un pra sa itsura mong tisoy.Wla nmang msma kung tayo’y magkakilanlan lalo na’t madalas nmn taung ngkkasabay 2wing labasan.

Kung alam mo lng din sana kung gaano kita gs2ng mkila2. kaso ndi bagay kng ako ang mauuna. Kaya hi2ntayin ko nlng ang arw n mglakas loob kang mgsbi ng “hello, pwde bng mkipagkila2?” smahan mo pa ng “type kc kita!” panalo sa hiritan..
cge na nga.. dalhin mo na ang puso kong sugatan!!... *kilig*

*after 2hrs. wla na celfone ko! Mgna2kaw pla ang loko!! Wahehehe… joke lng... ^^,

S A W À

Yan n yata ang isng slita sa bokabularyo ko n mhirap alisin. Salita na ndi ko alm kng saan nagmula at pano pumasok sa sistema ko. Ako n nga ata ang isang tao na mdalas gumamit nito. Ewan ko b kng bkit sa dinami daming salitang tagalog na pwede kong mhiligan gmitin ay e2 pang salita n2 ang nangu2na sa listahan ko.

Malamang nramdaman nio rin ung pkiramdam n isang arw pggsing mo ay nsbi mo nlng na “nka2sawà na!” Pro ang pngkaiba lng nun skin ay arw2, oras2, at minu2to ko atang nsa2bi e2.

Ganito n cguro tlga ako khit nung bata plang… kya nga wlang tumagal n Barbie doll skin dhil kng ndi ko ginugupitan ang buhok, minimake-upan ng pentel pen, at nila2gyan ng uling ang ktawan ay pinuputol ko nlng ang ulo’t kamay pati nrin ang paa n2 pra lng mbilhan ulit ako ng bago ni mama. (hehehe.. maldita tlga!!)

Sa 22o lng, Sawà nkong mgsing arw2 sa dialog ng ma2 kong “jobelle bangon na at mgjogging kna!” (buti sna kng ngjo2gging tlga ako, kso ndi nmn!)

Sawà nko mgpatay ng alarm clock 2wing mdaling araw na siniset ko pra lng gsingin ako at baka sakaling sipagin akong mgjogging! (ndi pla epektib skin yan lalo na’t ktabi ko c “ben”… pangaln ng unan ko… hehehe)

Nka2sawà nrin tignan ang srili ko sa slamin dhil alm kong wla nmn akong pinagbago (maganda prin..^^,)

Sawà nrin pla ako sa hairstyle ko kya nmn blak ko ng bumisita sa parlor at utusan ang mga bading n mkhang nkatira n nmn n pgtripan nmn ang buhok ko.

Sawà nko sa sinigang, nilaga, pinakbet, dinuguan, kare2, afritada, menudo, adobo, monggo, bulalo, prito, puto, kuto,(???) plato, baso, buko, ako, ikaw, tau.. tayong lahat ay Pilipino. Ahh basta! Sawà nko dyan.. (pcencia na.. may karinderia kc kmi kya laging fiesta sa bahay nmin)

Sawà nrin ako sa pizza, burger, French fries at ice cream. PERO sa di mlaman n kdahilanan ay nka2limutan ko ang slitang “sawà” pag nri2nig ko ang ktropa kong cnsbing “LIBRE KITA!” =^.^=

Nka2sawà nrin sumagot sa mga paulit2 n tanong n “musta result?”, “lumabas nba??”, “pasado kba??” at “kelan ba la2bas?”.. bkit b mas excited p cla kysa skin e ako nmn e2ng kumuha ng board at ndi cla… ako nmn e2ng ba2gsak.. ako nmn e2ng mpa2hiya!! (aahhh.. kya cguro excited cla!! Wahehehe…)

Sawà nko mgpbalik2 sa times at mgpprint k kuya Mon ng resumè.

Sawà nko lumakad at pumorma pra lang MAGPASA ng resumè at hintaying sbhin nlang “Cge, ttwagan nlng nmin kau.” (@#$#!!.. sayang ang porma! Sna pinahatid ko nlng sa kartero!!)

Sawà nko mkipagsingitan sa computer sa kuya ko n gngwang tv ang pc pra lng mnood ng movies at wlang kmatayang NBA!.. nak ng… knina p dpat tpos e2ng blog ko e…

Sawà nko lumanghap ng usok n galing sa yosi ng kuya ko.. (aba!! Gs2 p ata nya akong isma sa hukay pag nmatay xa dhil sa kkyosi!)

Nka2sawà at nka2irita nring panoorin e2ng dagang akya’t baba sa kisame nmin at tila gs2 p nyang sumugod sa kinauupuan ko. (haaayzz… buti nlng at nku2ha p sa tngin ang mga daga!)

Sawà nko sa People Power na wla nmang nga2wang mbuti dhil mang2 prin ang mga Pilipino sa pg boto ng Presidente.

Sawà nko mkinig sa mga kasinungalingan at palusot ng mga senador at mga tao nla n pilit tntgo ang mga anumalya sa gobyerno.

Sawàng sawà nko sa pagtaas ng bilihin at patuloy nmn n pgbaba ng dolyar d2 sa Pinas.

Nka2sawà nring mnood ng mga anime at cartoons, na kung kelan nmng nwi2li kna at tlgang gumigsing kpa ng maaga mpanood mo lng ay bigla2 nmn e2ng pu2tulin ng ndi man lng pinapakita ang “ENDING!”

Sawà nkong mgcheck ng celfone khit n alm kong wla nmang mgttxt

Sawà nko mghintay sa wala!

Sawà nkong mgpasikat sa ibng tao.

Sawà nkong mgtiwala sa mga taong ndi man lng pinahalagahan ang tiwalang iyon.

Sawà nko!! SAWÀng SAWÀ!!...

At alm kong sawà nrin kau ka2basa sa mga kasawà sawàng bagay n pinagsa2wàan ko! 2lad nlng ng pgsa2wà kong mgtype at mgicp ng isu2nod d2.

Oo!! Sawà nko!!... at ang mtindi sa lhat ay..

Sawàng sawà nkong mgSAWÀ!!..

hindi ko alm kng maalis pa e2 o mbbgo ko pa. pero ang alm ko ay meron prin akong pgka2taon mgsimulang mgbgo o ndi man eh khit pa2no ay “mabawasan” man lng ang mga bagay na pngsa2wàan ko. Kya nga gnawa ko e2 pra magkaron ako ng listahan ng mga bagay n un..

pro sa ngyon… ahmmm… gn2 muna ako… gn2 lng!! Walang pinagbago!! Hehehehe..

**pahabol lng… gs2 ko lng mlaman mong SAWÀ nrin ako sau!.. Oo!! Ikaw nga!! Ikaw n wiling2 ngbbsa n2ng blog ko at ndi n nmn mgiiwan ng comment!! Hehehe…

*peace out!*

For Singles only!!

Im sure! Ngyon plang puno n ang mga resto at malls or even parks sa dami ng mga mgda2te.. BUT before u plan to go out with sum1 ngyong Vday be sure to consider these things ill tell yah..

Dating is the act of going out on dates whereby one person socializes with a potential lover using a process that involves scheduling, usually exclusive, meetings of two people with mutual interest in one another.

For us, we use dating as part of the “getting to know stage”. During this process, people often explore each other through "dates" to discover whether or not they would be compatible together in a serious relationship. And if that person doesn’t feel any connection between them, then that’s the end of “dating”.

But sometimes, from what I observed, people tend to exceed from the ‘limits’ of dating. From my knowledge, I know that “holding hands” and “hugging” (i guess) are allowed in this process. What’s worst is when I heard people talking that they enjoyed the date because they were able to ‘score’ with their dates.. hmmm… this is what I’m talking about!!.. tsk tsk tsk.. Nowadays, a lot of people say that it’s the usual thing today and that’s what makes the “dating” more exciting!.. Well, I don’t know about that but for people like me that view s*x as an intimate activity between a married couple, it should not be done especially when you are just “assessing” the person and yet you don’t have a relationship (perhaps, a serious one) with the one you’re dating with.

I think, we should first really get-to-know the person deeply. Then from there you can build the relationship and do things the way you want it to be (I will not argue with you anymore when it comes to that matter). For now, just enjoy each others company and the “kilig” feeling it gives you.

Ok! Enough of the “sermon”.. Let me just give you tips on dating.

Dating Rules - Do's

1. Do try to look your best and be punctual on dates

2. Do have fun when dating. I know the subject of Mr. or Miss Right is serious but dating is fun too so keep it that way.

3. Do flatter and compliment your date on the way they look and the things they wear. People tend to go to a lot of effort on a date (hopefully) so being told that you are looking good is a nice thing to hear.

4. Be interested and interesting. Having that ‘sense of humor’ makes the dating an event that your date will always be looking forward to.

5. Do tell someone if you are NOT INTERESTED in dating them again. Being lied to and hopes kept alive is an evil and malicious act (yes I mean it that strongly). If you don't want to see someone again then let them know that in the nicest possible way you can.

6. Date only those you seem interested or attracted to. Don’t let your friends blow you away by their ‘opinions’ about your date and people they want you to go out with.

7. Do stay positive even when dates don't end well. It is certainly true that you will date a few frogs before you find a true prince.

8. Dating is the best way to be creative and take advantage of the chance to go to places you always wanted to visit.

9. Make dating happen for yourself. People will not come and ring your bell from nowhere. Dating requires positive action so go out there and meet people, as many people as you can. Practice your chat and flirting anywhere and everywhere. Being nice to people is very sexy and great fun.

10. Do surround yourself with positive like minded people who are also dating. Think about the girls from Sex and the City and how they assist each other in dating and matters of romance. Negative friends who don't condone the dating scene or don't understand it will only help lower your own expectations and make you feel negative.
    

Dating Rules - Don'ts

1. NEVER BE LATE, especially for men, even if you have a very good reason. Women should never be kept waiting and should never have to seat themselves – ever!!..

2. NEVER TELL LIES to your date or pretend anything about your life that isn't true. If this is your perfect match for God's sake do not allow it to be ruined by some silly lie told early on.

3. Never be TOO available. Being available every night of the week means you are making yourself uninteresting. Be busy, be unavailable generally and be interesting.

4. Don't give away too much about yourself at the start. People love “enigma” and mystery. Reveal things little by little each date so that you and your date will have enough topics to talk about.

5. Never check other people out when you are with your date. FOCUS on your date! Have the courtesy of concentrating solely on your date when you are with them.

6. Don't be rude or get drunk on a date. Courtesy and manners will get you everywhere.

7. Don't ignore your PERSONAL SAFETY when dating. Have a cellular phone and keep it charged, tell your friends where you are going and be safe. Date at first in well known public places and never ever be pushed into anything you are not happy with.

8. Don't give out personal information like home phone numbers and addresses on a first date. Keep them until you are sure of your date and the future possibilities. Who knows, they might have stalked you and I bet you don’t want stalkers around you!

9. Don't have sex on a first date if you ever want to see your new date again. If you like them and are interested in them, sex on a first date will usually ruin everything. Its too much too soon and is not the way of romance.

10. Never date a married person or person who is already in a relationship! They will not leave their partners for you (except exceptionally rarely). Don't be a shoulder to cry on, you deserve far better.

May you have a ‘perfect date’ (or even close to that) on this special day of hearts. Go out and have fun! Let us not allow ourselves to get lonesome while other people are making the most out of it!..=^.^=

"Half-way there"

There was this girl I met a few days ago. I was so bothered by her looks coz she’s seems a 'lil upset for something that I don’t know yet. But as I approached her and asked her if she’s ok, she then looked at me in the eye and said “its over.” I was puzzled by what she said, I have no idea what that means. Oh well, I guess a lil interrogation won’t hurt her that much. So I started asking questions and letting her explain what she meant by “it’s over.”

I was shocked when she started telling me her story. Only then that I found out that she just ended her “relationship” with the guy she used to go out with. But what really surprised me was the way she said it. She’s so strong; I didn’t even saw a tear in her eyes. Maybe she already accepted it long before it happened. Though she is strong but you can’t deny the fact that she’s hurting inside. Just because her eyes don’t tear, doesn’t mean that her heart is not crying.

I asked her what brought her in making such decision. Then she answered “I guess my heart just kind of tired waiting for him to do his moves and also I can’t feel his love for me anymore!” Well I can’t blame her for that; if that’s the best way for her to move on and let go of the hurtful things that happened between them. Sometimes we have to let go at some point in order for us to move forward.

Guess she felt that I was a bit worried about her. I know that letting go is easy to say but it takes a lot of courage to do so. Then suddenly she said “Letting go doesn’t mean giving up, but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. Don’t worry, I’ll be ok. Actually, I’m half way there.” She maybe broken but I felt that she’s now ready to pick up the pieces and be whole again. They say for a Christian, wholeness always comes after brokenness. I know God can heal a broken heart, but he has to have all the pieces. In these “tragedies” in our life that God chooses to exhibit His love and grace.

I know someday we will bump in each other again and this time she’s happy more than she can ever be.

**oops… dreaming is over, time to get up and do some household chores.

Just wondering, was that another girl or was it just a reflection of me??