Pagninilay-nilay

This Holy week most of the people are enjoying their short breaks from work kya hala’t nagkandaripas ata lahat sila sa beach at kung saan-saan pa para lng magUnwind. But for those Sagrado Katoliko and other members of religious groups, they take this time as an opportunity for them to reflect and repent for their sins.

Xempre nag muni-muni din nman ako at sobrang dami kong naisip at mga katanungang nabuo sa isipan ko.

Una – Napagtanto ko na ilang months nlang pla makukuha ko na ung License ko. Ano na gagawin ko after nun? I know that I NEED to look for a job ngayon plang para nman makatulong na ko dito sa house and put into practice everything na napag-aralan ko as Nurse. Tanong: san ba ako magsisimula?? Ipipilit ko bang ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko sa hospitals o hanap muna me ibang work like company nurse, school nurse, private nurse, o nurse na tagakuha ng BP ng mga kapitbahay??

Pangalawa – Iniisip ko plang pero prang ang hirap na. Its almost 1 year na rin akong walang “duty” or “exposure” sa hospital. Pano na lang pag magwowork na ako? Edi tatanga-tanga na nman ako nun. Back to zero!.. Aaminin ko, nakalimutan ko ng magcharting at kung anu-ano pang Nursing skills na natutunan ko dati. Iba kasi pag fresh from hospital duties ka pa atleast konting adjustment na lang ang gagawin ko, kso hindi na ganon ngayon.. Tanong: ano ba uunahin ko?? magUndergo ng trainings o diretsong hospital na agad tutal may mga trainings nman before ka mging regular??

Pangatlo – Summer na! pero hindi pa rin ako pumapayat. Pano nlang ang summer getaway na pinaplano ng tropa?? Tanong: ano bang effective way to lose some pounds??

Pang-Apat – I am planning to put up a business. Tamang raket lang ngayong summer para lang may panggastos me sa mga gala. Gusto ko sana ung mga Ice Buko popsicle o di kaya e Ice Candy o pwede ding BBQ.. hmmm.. ano pa ba? Garage sale?? Hahaha.. Tanong: may masusuggest pa ba kaung raket dyan ung tipong mura lang ung puhunan? May alam ba kaung masarap na recipe para sa Ice Candy?

PangLima – Someone asked me, saan ko daw ba balak pumunta ngayong Nurse na ako? Hmm.. Before gusto ko talaga sa New Zealand kasi ang ganda-ganda ng pagkakadescribe sakin nung friend ni mama naencourage tuloy ako kaso I still have to pass the IELTS before ako matanggap doon. Pero habang tumatagal parang naisip ko na sa Saudi na lang or any place sa Middle East. Gusto ko kasi sumabak sa giyera.. hahaha.. joke! Ang totoo, gusto ko dun kasi madaling makakapasok, wla ng exams! Ang klangan lang ay experience. Hindi naman ako nghahangad ng SOBRANG laking sweldo. Ung sapat lang na makatulong sa family at makaipon for my future, un lang! Tanong: Saan nga ba magandang pumunta? Ang dami na kasi sa states tapos need pa magtake ng maraming exams. Magastos at mahirap!

PangAnim – ilang days na lang and im turning 23 na.. YES! 23 po un hindi 24, 25 or even 30!!.. 23 po para sa mga hindi marunong magbilang!!.. hehehe… at the age of 23 eto ako ganon pa din. Single!! Whoaw! Consistent!!... naisip ko lang, magkakaroon pa ba ako ng chance na mameet ung guy na magmamahal sakin ng SOBRA2x?? I was planning that at the age of 25 magsesettle down na ako. Wala lang. Gusto ko kasing hindi maxadong malayo ung gap namin ng magiging anak ko para tropa-tropa lang. pero sa ngayon parang ngdududa na ako kasi 2yrs. na lang at hangang ngayon wala pa ako boylet. Tanong: Saan ba pwedeng mahanap ng prospect? Haha… dapat ba magbago na ako ng plan?

PangPito – Happy naman ako in my relationship with God pero feeling ko kulang pa ung binibigay ko. I admit for the past few days parang nakakalimot me siguro sa sobrang tuwa. I cant even focus sa church everytime na may preaching kasi kung anu-ano iniisip ko. Maxado kasi ako naging masaya kaya naoOver shadow ata si Lord ng happiness ko. I know I owe him everything na ngyayari sa akin ngayon. I should give thanks to Him pro bakit parang ang hirap gawin? Huhu.. Bakit mas madali sa akin na lumapit sa kanya pag malungkot ako kaysa pag masaya ako? Tanong: what should I do to strengthen my faith?

“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”

Psalm 51:12

So far eto pa lang ang mga naiisip ko. Guyz, I hope you help me in finding answers to these questions. Ang hirap kaya magisip ng mga kasagutan pag magisa ka lang. Ok lang kahit hindi nyo masagot lahat. I believe naman that in time, the answers will just find its way to me. Haha.. nasobrahan ba ako sa pagmumuni-muni?? Sayang walang ilog dito. Hehe.

☼ The Heat is On ☼

OMG! Watta day.. Ang init na talaga sa labas. Imagine, I went out diz morning well dressed and super fresh pa but then I came home na pawisan at amoy araw!! Eewww… partida manipis na nga lang shirt ko nun at super pusòd ang hair pero hindi ko nakeri ang init. Ewan ko ba naman dito sa payong namin at kung kelan naman super kainitan na ng panahon ay ngayon pa nya naisipang masira.. ayan wala tuloy ako magamit. Badtrip. Nung may nakakita nga sakin na naglalakad ng walang payong e talaga nmang prang awang awa na skin, bka daw mangitim ako. Nasabi ko nlng “Ok lang! Uso naman po ang Tan ngayon.” Hehe.. Tamang palusot!

I can really feel the summer na. Kaya nman super active na rin ang mga imaginations namin kakaisip at kakaplano ng ‘perfect summer getaway’. Yan kasi ang hilig ng tropa, magTRAVEL. Hahaha.. Infairnez naman sa country natin, ang daming magagandang beaches at bitches (nkuha ko lng yan sa Gapuz Review Center). Mamili ka lang from white to black, meron yan dito. (im pertaining to the colors of the sand) hahaha… Enyweiz, what I really like pag summer ay ung mga colorful outfits. Different colors. Different styles. Labasan na ng katawan! Woohoo… Pero how I wish makasabay ako dun. Kanya-kanyang porma na ‘to. May mga conservative pa din tulad ko na stick to jeans at shirts lang, pero mas marami na ngayon ang mga liberated na talaga namang feel na feel ang mga SHORT shorts at revealing tops. Ok lang yun trendy naman eh. And im sure na marami na ring naggGym ngayon, getting ready for their rampa sa beach. Actually gusto ko din kaso parang tinatamad pa ako at wala pa ko enough money para makapagpamember. Tsk tsk.. Sayang! Pero ok lng un, diet na lang muna ako tutal swak naman dahil “holy week” na. Dadaanin ko na lang sa fasting… Hehehe...

Ok naman sana ang summer/tag-init dito kaso ang hindi ko lang talaga gusto ay yung tipong nasa loob ka na nga lang ng bahay pero ramdam mo pa rin ang sikat ng araw sa labas. Talaga naman walang kawala sa bagsik ng init. Haaayzz.. Kahit na tipong nakaupo ka na lang at halos di na gumagalaw ay pinagpapawisan ka pa din. At isa pang ayaw ko sa summer ay ang mataas na bill namin sa kuryente at sobrang gastos sa tubig. Sino ba namang hindi maliligo sa yelo para lang marefresh ang sarili. Kaya nga mabenta ang yelo namin ngayon e. Im sure half ng buyers namin ay ginagawang panligo ang ice tulad nlang ng ginagawa ko. Hehehe.. Nakakaawa man ang electric fans dito sa bahay dahil wala na silang pahinga pero di hamak naman na mas nakakaawa ang mga taong mapeperwisyo pag hindi namin sila nagamit. Andyan yung labandera na dodoble ang labahin dahil oras-oras nagpapalit ng damit dahil basa ng pawis, ang nagdedeliver ng tubig na maya’t mayang umaakyat sa tangke ng tubig para magrefill, at ang mga customers namin na wala naman talagang kinalaman ay for sure masusungitan lang dahil sa sobrang init na ng ulo namin nun. Kaya naman napagdesisyunan kong mabuti ng magovertime na lang ang electric fan tutal indemand naman sila ngayon at hindi mo sila mariringgan ng reklamo. Good!

Enyweiz, sanay na naman ako sa ganitong panahon. Aasa pa ba akong umulan ng snow dito sa pinas? Haller? In my dreams.. hahaha.. Ok lng yun, tutal mabenta ang pinas ngayon sa mga kano. Who knows may makilala kami one of these dayz.. wahehehe.. pro sa ngayon, sbi nga ni dadi “tiis-tiis lang muna.”

Civil Status: SINGLE

I The Single Life

It’s another boring day for me. No phone calls. No textmates. Nobody to hang out with. Arrggh. Is this how Single life should be? Naaahh.. I don’t think so. I need to be outside, enjoying every single day of my Singlehood!!..

I remember a friend of mine once said, “I want to be single again. It’s more fun being single!” I don’t know what’s got into him that he uttered those words. I can’t really say that it’s more fun being single coz I never got to experience having that “serious relationship” or “long term commitment” with someone. But from what I observed and heard from people whose in a “relationship”, most of them said they miss their Single life.

I guess being single is not an accident. Every Single person has their own reasons for not having or being in a relationship. Some will say “let destiny finds its way” or “I haven’t found Mr./Ms Right” or the ever famous line “I’m not yet ready”. But for some, like me, it is a choice! Its not because we don’t believe in destiny; it’s just that having a relationship is not a priority.

I can’t blame them for missing Single life. There are a lot of reasons to celebrate it.

• You can have fun and stay up all night with friends without someone checking up on you every minute.
• You can flirt with any guys/girls you want without having that guilt feeling.
• You can dress in whatever way you feel without someone telling you “its too short!,” or “its too revealing”.
• You don't have to tolerate another's moodiness or anger.
• Your money is your own.. its all yours!!..
• You don’t have to be bothered fixing your schedule just to meet up your boy/girlfriend’s time.
• You can save a lot of money just by not texting or making phone calls to your boy/girlfriend.
• You just have to ask your parents’ permission if you plan of partying with friends.
• You don’t have to bring your boy/girlfriend in all of your ‘gala moments’.

You see.. Think about what you have. Nothing but time for yourself. You’re free to do what you want when you want. Well in this case I can say, Single is way too FUN!..

But of course, fun only last for a moment. Its more fulfilling if we seek Happiness rather than Fun in our Singlehood. According to Joshua Harris in his book “I kissed dating goodbye”, he defined Singleness as a season of our lives unmatched in its boundless opportunities for growth, learning, and service.

I think this is the perfect time for us to grow maturely in all aspects of our lives, learn independently, and serve God with undivided heart. We need to seek first that inner happiness within ourselves before we can commit in a “serious relationship” for only then we can be truly happy with that person and enjoy the relationship we have with them. Like what they say, “Don't depend on someone else for your happiness coz only you are ultimately responsible for your OWN happiness.”

Being single is fun, but being Single has a certain potential for growth that will never exist again at any other time in life. Grab it. Use it. Enjoy it!

Right now is an opportunity. Right now is a gift.

“Don’t do something about your Singlehood — do something with it.”