Pagninilay-nilay

This Holy week most of the people are enjoying their short breaks from work kya hala’t nagkandaripas ata lahat sila sa beach at kung saan-saan pa para lng magUnwind. But for those Sagrado Katoliko and other members of religious groups, they take this time as an opportunity for them to reflect and repent for their sins.

Xempre nag muni-muni din nman ako at sobrang dami kong naisip at mga katanungang nabuo sa isipan ko.

Una – Napagtanto ko na ilang months nlang pla makukuha ko na ung License ko. Ano na gagawin ko after nun? I know that I NEED to look for a job ngayon plang para nman makatulong na ko dito sa house and put into practice everything na napag-aralan ko as Nurse. Tanong: san ba ako magsisimula?? Ipipilit ko bang ipagsiksikan ang sarili ko sa hospitals o hanap muna me ibang work like company nurse, school nurse, private nurse, o nurse na tagakuha ng BP ng mga kapitbahay??

Pangalawa – Iniisip ko plang pero prang ang hirap na. Its almost 1 year na rin akong walang “duty” or “exposure” sa hospital. Pano na lang pag magwowork na ako? Edi tatanga-tanga na nman ako nun. Back to zero!.. Aaminin ko, nakalimutan ko ng magcharting at kung anu-ano pang Nursing skills na natutunan ko dati. Iba kasi pag fresh from hospital duties ka pa atleast konting adjustment na lang ang gagawin ko, kso hindi na ganon ngayon.. Tanong: ano ba uunahin ko?? magUndergo ng trainings o diretsong hospital na agad tutal may mga trainings nman before ka mging regular??

Pangatlo – Summer na! pero hindi pa rin ako pumapayat. Pano nlang ang summer getaway na pinaplano ng tropa?? Tanong: ano bang effective way to lose some pounds??

Pang-Apat – I am planning to put up a business. Tamang raket lang ngayong summer para lang may panggastos me sa mga gala. Gusto ko sana ung mga Ice Buko popsicle o di kaya e Ice Candy o pwede ding BBQ.. hmmm.. ano pa ba? Garage sale?? Hahaha.. Tanong: may masusuggest pa ba kaung raket dyan ung tipong mura lang ung puhunan? May alam ba kaung masarap na recipe para sa Ice Candy?

PangLima – Someone asked me, saan ko daw ba balak pumunta ngayong Nurse na ako? Hmm.. Before gusto ko talaga sa New Zealand kasi ang ganda-ganda ng pagkakadescribe sakin nung friend ni mama naencourage tuloy ako kaso I still have to pass the IELTS before ako matanggap doon. Pero habang tumatagal parang naisip ko na sa Saudi na lang or any place sa Middle East. Gusto ko kasi sumabak sa giyera.. hahaha.. joke! Ang totoo, gusto ko dun kasi madaling makakapasok, wla ng exams! Ang klangan lang ay experience. Hindi naman ako nghahangad ng SOBRANG laking sweldo. Ung sapat lang na makatulong sa family at makaipon for my future, un lang! Tanong: Saan nga ba magandang pumunta? Ang dami na kasi sa states tapos need pa magtake ng maraming exams. Magastos at mahirap!

PangAnim – ilang days na lang and im turning 23 na.. YES! 23 po un hindi 24, 25 or even 30!!.. 23 po para sa mga hindi marunong magbilang!!.. hehehe… at the age of 23 eto ako ganon pa din. Single!! Whoaw! Consistent!!... naisip ko lang, magkakaroon pa ba ako ng chance na mameet ung guy na magmamahal sakin ng SOBRA2x?? I was planning that at the age of 25 magsesettle down na ako. Wala lang. Gusto ko kasing hindi maxadong malayo ung gap namin ng magiging anak ko para tropa-tropa lang. pero sa ngayon parang ngdududa na ako kasi 2yrs. na lang at hangang ngayon wala pa ako boylet. Tanong: Saan ba pwedeng mahanap ng prospect? Haha… dapat ba magbago na ako ng plan?

PangPito – Happy naman ako in my relationship with God pero feeling ko kulang pa ung binibigay ko. I admit for the past few days parang nakakalimot me siguro sa sobrang tuwa. I cant even focus sa church everytime na may preaching kasi kung anu-ano iniisip ko. Maxado kasi ako naging masaya kaya naoOver shadow ata si Lord ng happiness ko. I know I owe him everything na ngyayari sa akin ngayon. I should give thanks to Him pro bakit parang ang hirap gawin? Huhu.. Bakit mas madali sa akin na lumapit sa kanya pag malungkot ako kaysa pag masaya ako? Tanong: what should I do to strengthen my faith?

“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”

Psalm 51:12

So far eto pa lang ang mga naiisip ko. Guyz, I hope you help me in finding answers to these questions. Ang hirap kaya magisip ng mga kasagutan pag magisa ka lang. Ok lang kahit hindi nyo masagot lahat. I believe naman that in time, the answers will just find its way to me. Haha.. nasobrahan ba ako sa pagmumuni-muni?? Sayang walang ilog dito. Hehe.

☼ The Heat is On ☼

OMG! Watta day.. Ang init na talaga sa labas. Imagine, I went out diz morning well dressed and super fresh pa but then I came home na pawisan at amoy araw!! Eewww… partida manipis na nga lang shirt ko nun at super pusòd ang hair pero hindi ko nakeri ang init. Ewan ko ba naman dito sa payong namin at kung kelan naman super kainitan na ng panahon ay ngayon pa nya naisipang masira.. ayan wala tuloy ako magamit. Badtrip. Nung may nakakita nga sakin na naglalakad ng walang payong e talaga nmang prang awang awa na skin, bka daw mangitim ako. Nasabi ko nlng “Ok lang! Uso naman po ang Tan ngayon.” Hehe.. Tamang palusot!

I can really feel the summer na. Kaya nman super active na rin ang mga imaginations namin kakaisip at kakaplano ng ‘perfect summer getaway’. Yan kasi ang hilig ng tropa, magTRAVEL. Hahaha.. Infairnez naman sa country natin, ang daming magagandang beaches at bitches (nkuha ko lng yan sa Gapuz Review Center). Mamili ka lang from white to black, meron yan dito. (im pertaining to the colors of the sand) hahaha… Enyweiz, what I really like pag summer ay ung mga colorful outfits. Different colors. Different styles. Labasan na ng katawan! Woohoo… Pero how I wish makasabay ako dun. Kanya-kanyang porma na ‘to. May mga conservative pa din tulad ko na stick to jeans at shirts lang, pero mas marami na ngayon ang mga liberated na talaga namang feel na feel ang mga SHORT shorts at revealing tops. Ok lang yun trendy naman eh. And im sure na marami na ring naggGym ngayon, getting ready for their rampa sa beach. Actually gusto ko din kaso parang tinatamad pa ako at wala pa ko enough money para makapagpamember. Tsk tsk.. Sayang! Pero ok lng un, diet na lang muna ako tutal swak naman dahil “holy week” na. Dadaanin ko na lang sa fasting… Hehehe...

Ok naman sana ang summer/tag-init dito kaso ang hindi ko lang talaga gusto ay yung tipong nasa loob ka na nga lang ng bahay pero ramdam mo pa rin ang sikat ng araw sa labas. Talaga naman walang kawala sa bagsik ng init. Haaayzz.. Kahit na tipong nakaupo ka na lang at halos di na gumagalaw ay pinagpapawisan ka pa din. At isa pang ayaw ko sa summer ay ang mataas na bill namin sa kuryente at sobrang gastos sa tubig. Sino ba namang hindi maliligo sa yelo para lang marefresh ang sarili. Kaya nga mabenta ang yelo namin ngayon e. Im sure half ng buyers namin ay ginagawang panligo ang ice tulad nlang ng ginagawa ko. Hehehe.. Nakakaawa man ang electric fans dito sa bahay dahil wala na silang pahinga pero di hamak naman na mas nakakaawa ang mga taong mapeperwisyo pag hindi namin sila nagamit. Andyan yung labandera na dodoble ang labahin dahil oras-oras nagpapalit ng damit dahil basa ng pawis, ang nagdedeliver ng tubig na maya’t mayang umaakyat sa tangke ng tubig para magrefill, at ang mga customers namin na wala naman talagang kinalaman ay for sure masusungitan lang dahil sa sobrang init na ng ulo namin nun. Kaya naman napagdesisyunan kong mabuti ng magovertime na lang ang electric fan tutal indemand naman sila ngayon at hindi mo sila mariringgan ng reklamo. Good!

Enyweiz, sanay na naman ako sa ganitong panahon. Aasa pa ba akong umulan ng snow dito sa pinas? Haller? In my dreams.. hahaha.. Ok lng yun, tutal mabenta ang pinas ngayon sa mga kano. Who knows may makilala kami one of these dayz.. wahehehe.. pro sa ngayon, sbi nga ni dadi “tiis-tiis lang muna.”

Civil Status: SINGLE

I The Single Life

It’s another boring day for me. No phone calls. No textmates. Nobody to hang out with. Arrggh. Is this how Single life should be? Naaahh.. I don’t think so. I need to be outside, enjoying every single day of my Singlehood!!..

I remember a friend of mine once said, “I want to be single again. It’s more fun being single!” I don’t know what’s got into him that he uttered those words. I can’t really say that it’s more fun being single coz I never got to experience having that “serious relationship” or “long term commitment” with someone. But from what I observed and heard from people whose in a “relationship”, most of them said they miss their Single life.

I guess being single is not an accident. Every Single person has their own reasons for not having or being in a relationship. Some will say “let destiny finds its way” or “I haven’t found Mr./Ms Right” or the ever famous line “I’m not yet ready”. But for some, like me, it is a choice! Its not because we don’t believe in destiny; it’s just that having a relationship is not a priority.

I can’t blame them for missing Single life. There are a lot of reasons to celebrate it.

• You can have fun and stay up all night with friends without someone checking up on you every minute.
• You can flirt with any guys/girls you want without having that guilt feeling.
• You can dress in whatever way you feel without someone telling you “its too short!,” or “its too revealing”.
• You don't have to tolerate another's moodiness or anger.
• Your money is your own.. its all yours!!..
• You don’t have to be bothered fixing your schedule just to meet up your boy/girlfriend’s time.
• You can save a lot of money just by not texting or making phone calls to your boy/girlfriend.
• You just have to ask your parents’ permission if you plan of partying with friends.
• You don’t have to bring your boy/girlfriend in all of your ‘gala moments’.

You see.. Think about what you have. Nothing but time for yourself. You’re free to do what you want when you want. Well in this case I can say, Single is way too FUN!..

But of course, fun only last for a moment. Its more fulfilling if we seek Happiness rather than Fun in our Singlehood. According to Joshua Harris in his book “I kissed dating goodbye”, he defined Singleness as a season of our lives unmatched in its boundless opportunities for growth, learning, and service.

I think this is the perfect time for us to grow maturely in all aspects of our lives, learn independently, and serve God with undivided heart. We need to seek first that inner happiness within ourselves before we can commit in a “serious relationship” for only then we can be truly happy with that person and enjoy the relationship we have with them. Like what they say, “Don't depend on someone else for your happiness coz only you are ultimately responsible for your OWN happiness.”

Being single is fun, but being Single has a certain potential for growth that will never exist again at any other time in life. Grab it. Use it. Enjoy it!

Right now is an opportunity. Right now is a gift.

“Don’t do something about your Singlehood — do something with it.”

Siksik, Liglig at Umaapaw

“When God gives, it POURS”

Eto ang madalas na maririnig mo sa Church namin tuwing “giving time.” Infairnez, totoo naman at msa2bi kong e2 n nga ata ang nra2nsan ng pamilya ko ngyon.. A month full of blessings!!... Ang saya!

Feb. 21 – The long wait is over! The results are out!.. lumabas na sa net ang result ng December 2007 Nsg. Licensure Exam. Out of 67,728 board takers e nkasama ang name ko sa 28, 924 successful board passers!.. Ang saya! Talagang nka2high ung feeling.. ikaw b nmn gsingin ng good news ndi kba m22wa nun.. khit na wla kpa sa tamang ulirat e mbu2hayan k tlga ng dugo pg nrinig mo na pumasa ka sa npakahirap n exam n un.. woohoo!!... Lam ko it doesn’t end there but atleast ngyon I will be able to apply for the position of a Nurse, ndi na NA… ang saya kya nun!.. hehehe...

Feb. 22 – Hindi pa man nta2pos ung hangover nmin sa board exam e sumabay nrin sa celebration ang paglabas ng pamangkin ko! Welcome to the outside world Baby Jacob Rhynuer Caballero! We are so happy na nkalabas xa ng maayos at wlang complications. Happy din kmi dhil khit na super hirap na ung hipag ko sa panganganak ay ngawa prin nyang mgNSVD (Normal Spontaneous Vaginal Delivery). Hirap kaya nun pro nakaya nya!..

Feb. 23 – Me and my friends went out to have some fun!.. Mtagal2 din kming ndi naka pagbonding kya sulitin dpat ang gala.. Thank God at bnigyan me ni ma2 ng png gastos.. wahehe.. dun lng ulit ako nkalabas at nkahingi ng money k ma2.. sayang nga’t ndi kmi kumpleto but im sure sa next victory party nmin wla ng aabsent!!.. hehehe… Blessing tlga for me to have friends whose always there in full support.. tnx tlga sa prayers guys!!..^^,

Feb. 27 – B-day ni Kuya at sakto nmng tumawag sknya ung pngapplyan nyang work and he is for final interview na!.. Grabe ang gift sknya ni Lord.. May baby Jacob na may work pa.. Good! Atleast may panggastos n xa sa anak nya… ang saya ko!

– I also received a call from a friend and meron xang dalang good news.. (hmm… ndi ko muna ssbhin bka maudlot e..) pro good news tlga xa for me!!.. hahahaha.. sana matuloy!.. ang saya saya ko tlga!!...

Feb. 28 – We went to PRC to verify our grades.. And again God answered my prayers.. ang saya ko!!.. wahehehe... Super happy ako sa grade ko!.. (ilan un??.. ahmmm… secret!!.. pilitin nio muna ako.. wahehe…)

– We also went to PNA office to get tickets for the Oath taking.. muntik n kming mcut-off sa pila pro buti nlng makulit kmi at tlgang ndi ngpatindag si tonton kya in the end e pngbigyan kming pumasok at kumuha ng tickets.. haaaayzzz.. buti nlng at ndi n sayang lakad nmin… Mission accomplished!!...

Sobra2ng thankful kmi dhil answered prayer lhat.. It is true that “Prayer goes Up and Blessings go dOwn.”

Sa ngyon, I can say that thou we are in a financial crisis but still we are able to enjoy God’s blessings.

Hindi man ako super saya sa ibang bahagi ng buhay ko pro having God in my life makes that happiness complete!.. ANG SAYA KO!!!!....

May God continue to give us a blissful life!!..

I'm coming OUT! ö_ö

Its been too dark in here ever since I came. I know I’m alone; nobody’s out there and its barely walls around me. At first, I was freely moving in this ‘cave’ I’m in. But as the days go by and months passes by, this ‘cave’ of mine gets too narrow for me to move. Still, its ok. I’m enjoying myself swimming around and floating in the water. The water here is also my only source of drink, so that I won’t get dehydrated while I’m still inside this ‘cave’.


I wonder where that voice is coming from. It’s like they’re singing. Though I don’t know what that song is, but surely it makes me feel sleepy.


Ooops.. I bumped my head on the wall again. I guess, I’m getting too big for this ‘lil space I have. But I know, in no time I’ll be free from this ‘cave’ of mine.


Ohh wait, I think I’m on my way out. I can see the path now; the way to the outside world. The ‘gate’ is being opened bit by bit each day.


I’m so excited! I can’t wait to see my mom and dad. I’m excited to see their reactions. Do you think they’ll like me? Though I’ve been here for almost 9 months, “coming out” will surely calls for a celebration! I know I’ll bring a BIG change in the lives of the people who’ll be taking care of me. Although it will take some time before we can understand each other but I am certain that they are happy seeing me alive.


So please pray for my safety as I head my way out. And please, do also pray for my mom’s strength, that she can endure the pain she’ll be going through.


Ok! its time now. I hope to see you soon.


Oh I forgot to tell you my name. Well you can call me anything you want but most of them call me “baby” and I like it!..

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February 22, 2008 at 6:30 pm
- Baby Jacob Rhynuer Caballero was born!!.. (my pamangkin!)